It’s really easy to get yourself out of balance and this is where I found myself at the end of 2015… Out of balance and suffering for it.
I had been shedding all the things that I didn’t want to do anymore and was standing at the crossroads of my music career. The end of 2015 was when I finally said goodbye to CoverLand.
CoverLand was a place where I lived for the past twelve years and I turned my back on doing cover gigs because I simply had enough of the whole covers scene.
You see, when I first decided that I wanted to play music professionally it was always my intention to work my original gigs in with the covers work and somehow make both scenes work for me but it hadn’t worked out that way.
By the end of my time in CoverLand I was just a shell of my artistic self and I was far too reliant on the money I was making to make any other moves. I was trapped by it all. I was well and truly burnt out.
I could feel the last of my artistic integrity slipping away and something had to be done before I past the point of no return in terms of burnout and plus, for some reason I was going through an extended gig drought at the the time and all of my cover gigs had pretty much dried up.
I was changing into one of those musicians with the one hundred yard stare and no joy in his eyes for himself, his music or, the audience. I had always said to myself that if for any reason I would end up like that then it was time for me to move on.
So I did…
Now six months down the track and I don’t miss the cover gigs at all. I must admit, it was hard initially but I think it was more the money I missed not the actual gigs themselves but now I have time to focus on my own music and especially my home recording setup.
Right now I’m not actively seeking any original gigs. If a gig falls into my lap I’ll say yes but that’s it at this stage. I’m just happy to write, collaborate, record and at the same time, work on myself physically, emotionally and spiritually.
When I do get back to playing gigs, I reckon it will be as a soloist. I’m really attracted to the concept of stripping everything back to the barest minimum with voice and acoustic guitar.
I want to get artistically naked and vulnerable again.
When will that time come? I don’t know as yet but I’m enjoying the journey so far.