I made a decision at the beginning of last year that by the end of 2015 I would let go of all the things that I didn’t want to do and only do the things that really wanted to do. For all potential future projects I would use this statement as my guide in what I say yes or no to.
Throughout 2015 I did let go of a lot of stuff. I wound up all of my contracted covers gigs and other related projects so I could devote my time to writing, recording and performing my own music plus, getting stuck into my new (non-music related) day job.
Fast forward to right now (February 11th, 2016) and I know that THAT decision I made at the beginning of 2015 was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made in my life.
No longer do I have the insane amounts of stress and anxiety that came with having to play covers in the large variety of projects I had to be in to ensure that I had enough income coming in.
Let me tell you, I don’t miss working weekends at all.
I no longer feel that I have to put my own creativity in a corner and leave it there for a rainy day because I had no time for my own stuff.
I also don’t have to play songs that I don’t like to crowds that don’t care in venues that don’t respect musicians as the professionals that they are. I can now practise my own songs for my own shows rather than other people’s music for gigs that felt like more of a means to an end than a creatively enjoyable experience.
At this time I’m devoting my time to making friends again with the creative part of myself that I had neglected for such a long time but what I can say is that for the first time a very long time, I am truly happy with where I am musically.
This was all the end result of me making a decision to finally be true to myself. That is the real power of letting go.