As you might be aware, at the end of 2015, I decided to say goodbye to playing covers and take a break from live performance to give myself the space to work out what I wanted to do next musically.
Even though I have played the occasional gig in that time due to the opportunity landing in my lap rather than me chasing it down, what I have found eight months into my break is that…
I really don’t miss playing live
I know that I will eventually start to “miss” the whole playing in front of an audience thing but for the time being I’m happy to sit in my studio and write, record and get back to be a creative person. I am finding that I have written more songs and have collaborated with more writers than I have ever before… And I’m loving it.
I have more time at my disposal
I have my weekends back for a start and because of that I have more choice in how I spend my time now. I’m finding that I’m more able to slow down life and smell the roses a bit more than I used to. I’m able to reconnect with family and friends and even catch a live show from time to time. All of this make me feel much more grounded than I had been
I have less stress and anxiety in my life
With the constant need to hustle for gigs now gone for the time being, I’m finding that I have less stress and anxiety in my life. Having a non-music related day job which provides the income I need has taken the pressure off. For me, music is now becoming more of an act of creativity again rather than just a functional that provided me employment.
I am a more focussed individual
Just the fact that I’ve been able to make more changes to this website in a number of days than I have in the last 18 months or so is testament to the fact that less stress and anxiety in my life + more time at my disposal = more focus.
I have re-discovered my spiritual path
The long periods of contemplation have enabled me to rediscover a spiritual path I had been exploring while living in Sydney between 1994 and 1999. This path revolves mainly around Buddhist philosophy (without the religious overtones) with mindfulness and meditation as part of the mix. I will go deeper into this in a future post
Do I want to get back into playing live again any time soon? No, not really.
At this stage I’m quite happy just creating for creating sake however, I know that there will be a time when I will really miss the gigs and only then will that be the right time for me to get back into it.
Until that time arrives, getting creative and working on becoming the best person I can be for myself (and everybody else) is my number one priority.