I’ve been keeping a low profile since last Sunday because I’ve been cooped up in bed getting over a nasty chest infection which has really knocked me about.
Again! I’m feeling like getting sick is becoming a regular event in my life
Normally, when something like this happens I feel guilty about not being able to do anything and from there start beating up on myself about how lazy I am but this time was different.
I gave myself the time to heal and I was surprised that the more I recovered, the more I liked being in a position of not having to do anything.
And you know what?
My world didn’t fall apart…
I’d forgotten how good it felt to just stop and reflect on, rather than react to, what life throws at me. This was a bit of a revelation, a wake up call, a real “aha” moment.
Being in bed since Sunday has given me a lot of time to think about stuff, and I’ve come up with four things to work on.
1. Take Better Care Of Myself
I have been sick more in the last 12-18 months than I have in a long time and this is really worrying me. I’ve started seeing a GP regularly again recently and that’s a start but I know that is not enough, there’s a lot of work I have to do as well.
2. Stop Worrying About Money
It’s really easy to hop onto the money chasing merry-go-round but it’s really hard to get off it. Although finding work that pays the bills is important when you’re self employed, obsessing over it to the point of not functioning is not the way to go about it.
3. Stop Trying To Constantly Please Others
“You can’t be all things to all people” and “What others say about you is none of your business” are two quotes that sum up my core motivators for doing anything at the moment. I’ve got to learn that no matter what I do there’s going to be someone who doesn’t like it and that by being “the nice guy” at the cost of my own self is the wrong path to take.
4. Immerse Myself In Music Again
I certainly don’t write enough music, play enough music, record enough music and listen to enough music for my liking and this has got to change. I have been far too busy neglecting myself by chasing my own tail trying to make a buck while at the same time trying to please everybody by being the nice guy who does everything for others but nothing for himself.
I see a pattern forming here…
At the moment, I don’t have any answers but I do have a clearer path to take and I choose to walk that path today and use this blog as a means to track my progress from time to time. I am noticing though that as I’m writing this the little voice inside my head is screaming at me:
“What does this post have to do with your music business?”
Well, if I find ways to address these four things and hold myself accountable through this blog then my music business will thrive, I’ll feel better about myself, I’ll get more things done, I’ll get more sleep and generally, I’ll become a better artist, songwriter, musician and human being.
After all, isn’t that what life is all about?