The Truth Really Does Set You Free

When I started my blog I made sure I clearly stated my reasons for doing it.

So much so that in an earlier post I mentioned that through this blog I wanted to “… build a community of people around me and my music and I’ll be doing that by being me, being open and honest and documenting everything that I’m doing on my musical journey.”

Well I haven’t been totally open and honest with you and therefore, at this very moment I feel like I’ve let you all down.

A case in point and something that I have been called on recently by a couple of people who really know me has been my (so called) review about the Synchronicity Police vs Pure Blondie show.

This post is an example of what I’ve written and what I’ve actually felt being on other ends of a spectrum. I thought I was being “diplomatic” when I wrote the post but in fact, I was being just plain dishonest with you and to myself.

The honest truth is that I hated the night, I felt unprepared for the gig due to the stop/start nature of our own rehearsal schedule and the “doing a duet with the other band” idea that was prosed by the lead singer of Pure Blondie was something that I only tolerated because I didn’t have the guts to say NO.

There, I said it… It does feel good to set the record straight but it has taken me a few days to get up enough courage to write this post.

Why?

Because I’m scared of what people think, I’m scared that people won’t like me, or not take me seriously, or think that I’m a bad person because of this post.

What I have learnt about myself over the last few days is that I have a bad habit of sugarcoating my life, for the purposes of appearing like I am in control. It seemed that every time I wrote something or opened my mouth to speak, the temptation to produce propaganda rather than to tell my truth would cover me like a dark heavy shroud.

It’s amazing how much pressure I’ve put myself under trying to be all things to all people but I’ve realised that I can’t be everything to everybody.

I’m a person who has succumbed to the illusion that life is to be controlled and organised rather than to be spontaneously lived. I’ve also realised that being truly me means that I have to embrace my imperfections and flaws as well as my good points and that where I am right now is the sum total of all my experiences and choices to date.

So, I want to restate to you my purpose for doing this blog, for maintaining my website.

“I want to build a community of people around me and my music. I’ll be doing that by being me, being open and honest and documenting everything that I’m doing on my journey through the many facets of my life.”

I have a long way to go but after being bound up by indecision for so long the truth really does set you free.

Peace,

Corey

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Corey this is just brilliant stuff and a wonderful realisation to come to. So, so true – honesty – oh where do I start and the path I am travelling with it.I just want to thank you for YOUR honesty – it inspires me.

A friend of mine just posted a beautiful quote on facebook – it’s very fitting I think…

” Ask yourself right now, What’s my own nature if I have no outside forces telling me who or what I should be? Then work at living one day in complete harmony with your own nature, ignoring pressures to be otherwise. ” – Dr. Wayne Dyer

Hey Corey

We share goals.

We walk different paths towards these goals.

I appreciate your communications very much.

I owe so much to you for all the development and joy that I have derived from playing at the dan and the joiners open mikes.

I respect your diplomacy and people skills.

You have kept the Adelaide original music scene going during its leanest darkest times.

I know that you are not perfect, I am also aware of my own imperfections.

Maybe you learn from me just as I learn from you.

Thank you for being a part of my wonderful life.

Best wishes from Brett

HI Corey,
good on you for exposing yourself like this – that’s very courageous! Few people would do this I reakon. I only hope that you’re not beating yourself up about it, because as you know the first step towards change is awareness… and clearly this you have!!

Love
Tarshxx

Haley, Brett and Tarsh,

Thank you so much for the kind words and encouragement, it really means a lot to me.

It’s made me realise that the post that I was most afraid to write the one I needed to write. It was a good decision to make and all three of you have confirmed that with your comments.

Thank you,

Corey

PS: No Tarsh I’m not beating myself up about it…